I release myself to be who I am, and who I want to be, and who I am becoming, instead of staying or reverting back to who I was, or who others have or do expect me to be.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Disappointed with you..
I have never seen such a selfish person. Command people to stop whatever they are doing now just to do what you want that person to do for you. It's not that you don't have time, it's not that you are sick or extremely tired, it's not that it is very urgent, it's not that you are not capable of doing it, but it's just the fun of having somebody to serve you! Just imagine when you are talking to your bf and I stopped you just to ask you get me toilet paper while I can do it by myself. You never treat me as your family, you complain when you need to fetch me home or do a favour for me, you feel annoyed. You dislike people to even enter or sleep at your room, you treat any new gadgets like ipod touch or digital camera, etc as if they only belong to you. These are all unlike how you treat him-- distance, effort, time, petrol, money......is never an issue for you when it comes to him. You talk to me as if you are talking to a slave, perhaps we don't call it talk, we call it yell and shout. Unlike how you talk to him like a small little bird. I wanted to complain, wanted to tell him who was on the skype how much of dissastisfaction I am feeling now. But no..He is your friend, I'll never ever spoil your image in front of anyone, not even my own friends. This is not the first time, and is definitely not a big issue at all, but I just feel very disappointed of how you treat those who love you except him. Totally different that everyone can tell. Your bossy attitude really make me sick. Haihz..
Monday, November 1, 2010
2nd Seremban Posting
Today is our first day of surgery posting in Seremban. I want to learn more, see more, do more, study more this time. I don't want to let people think that dentists don't know anything, and dentists don't deserve to be called doctor. Few of my classmates disappointed me though. The ponteng king, as usual, didn't even show up today, kononnya sick. Embarrass DT108! Damn disappointed with him. Haihz..The complain Queen, like always, complains about everything under the sun is sucky and yucky, pampered kid. What to do, people are grown up in rich family background.
I know that I am lazy person, and I get exhausted very very easily! Eyes get fatigue in few minutes @.@ Sometimes I do also complain and dissatisfied with the way IMU arrange thing. But I must bear with these two weeks! We are so lucky to be given opportunity to work and observe and practice whatever we want which we won't have chance to deal with in our future working field. I must constantly remind myself to be more motivated, more hardworking and more ohm!!
Thankful to Jon, Koon Hau and Chin Nam who willing to spare an empty room for us to rest here, led us to buy groceries despite not wanting anything, and brought us out to hunt for food. Thanks to Warren who taught me medical related stuff after reading up and fetched us in Seremban. Thank you Yun Teng for accompanying me to cramp in this little comfy room although she is snoring so cutely now..hahahha!! Time to sleep..Someone is enjoying in pub now..LOL!
I know that I am lazy person, and I get exhausted very very easily! Eyes get fatigue in few minutes @.@ Sometimes I do also complain and dissatisfied with the way IMU arrange thing. But I must bear with these two weeks! We are so lucky to be given opportunity to work and observe and practice whatever we want which we won't have chance to deal with in our future working field. I must constantly remind myself to be more motivated, more hardworking and more ohm!!
Thankful to Jon, Koon Hau and Chin Nam who willing to spare an empty room for us to rest here, led us to buy groceries despite not wanting anything, and brought us out to hunt for food. Thanks to Warren who taught me medical related stuff after reading up and fetched us in Seremban. Thank you Yun Teng for accompanying me to cramp in this little comfy room although she is snoring so cutely now..hahahha!! Time to sleep..Someone is enjoying in pub now..LOL!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
I'll miss you~
This time I said no..
It's not that I don't want, but I am afraid of changes.
It's not that I don't like, but I have no confidence.
It's not that I am timid, but I don't feel secured.
It's not that I wasn't touched, but most of the failed LDR proved that people are not always determined and strong-minded after all.
Sometimes I wish that we had never started to chat.
Sometimes I wish that we had never met.
Sometimes I wish that I would have been strong enough to resist.
But somehow I wish the most that you will never leave.
Thanks for letting me know that I am appreciated.
Thanks for not taking me for granted like some other people do.
Thanks for really making me feel being pampered and loved.
Thanks for giving me good memories before you leave.
Bon voyage! Have a safe flight back k=)! I think it will be hard for the first few days >.< Ouch..."M-M-M!!"
It's not that I don't want, but I am afraid of changes.
It's not that I don't like, but I have no confidence.
It's not that I am timid, but I don't feel secured.
It's not that I wasn't touched, but most of the failed LDR proved that people are not always determined and strong-minded after all.
Sometimes I wish that we had never started to chat.
Sometimes I wish that we had never met.
Sometimes I wish that I would have been strong enough to resist.
But somehow I wish the most that you will never leave.
Thanks for letting me know that I am appreciated.
Thanks for not taking me for granted like some other people do.
Thanks for really making me feel being pampered and loved.
Thanks for giving me good memories before you leave.
Bon voyage! Have a safe flight back k=)! I think it will be hard for the first few days >.< Ouch..."M-M-M!!"
Reminder for myself
1.收到甜言蜜語的短信,記得微笑,然後刪除。
2.想辦法努力賺錢,而不是如何省錢。
3.憤怒的時候,數到30,再說話。
4.喜歡的東西自己努力買,不要指望別人送。
5.少喝果汁多吃水果,少吃零食多喝水,少坐多站,少想多看,少說多做,少懷舊多憧憬。
6.永遠不會再有第二個男人像爸爸這樣愛你,所以最愛的男人當然是爸爸。
7.不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分一點給家人和朋友。
8.不要認為找個有錢男人就什麼都有了。世界上年輕的女孩子,多的就像貨櫃上的可樂,喝不喝都無所謂。
9.吃下去的就堅決不再吐出來,所以吃之前要想清楚。
10.寂寞的時候,不要聽慢歌,懷舊或者膩死在網上,站起來做運動或者去找朋友八卦。
11.看透的時候,假裝沒看透。
12.工作的你,和遊手好閒的你,絕對不是同一個人。
13.做好防曬,但記得適當地曬曬太陽。心情也會進行光合作用。真的。
14.真正看中的東西就買,不要借錢,想清楚之後再決定,決定之後就不要後悔 。
15.銀行卡的密碼不要用男友的生日。
16.永遠不向從前的戀人訴苦。
17.出門之前,根據步行的時間和強度考慮要穿的鞋子。
18.要讀好書,陶冶情操,提高品位。
19.可以淘便宜的衣服,但記得自己的品位比這個價位高。
20.桌上的護膚品永遠比化妝品多,貴,好,對於女人來說外養不如內調。
21.養成寫日記的習慣,哪怕隻言片語。
22.可以不認同,但學會尊重。
23.注重內心,但不忽略外表。
24.做不了決定的時候,讓時間幫你決定。如果還是無法決定,做了再說。寧願犯錯,不留遺憾!
25.打電話的時候記得微笑,對方聽的見。
26.每月記帳,每月儲蓄。
27.瞭解潮流,但不必跟風。
28.看起來多大年齡,就有多大年齡。
29.相信愛情和mr.right的存在,在此之前也不拒絕和mr.wrong們分享人生。
30.如果發短資訊給你喜歡的人,他不回。不要再發
31.不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑鬱,這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然,偶爾傻一下有必要,人生不必時時聰明
32.穿有質感的衣服,找有品質的男朋友。他不一定很有錢,但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。
33.如果決定離開一個人,行動要快一點,快刀斬亂麻;如果決定愛上一個人,時間拉長一點,看清楚是否適合你。
34.閒情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝,或者做茶點吃,放一段柔情音樂,翻閱幾頁好書,然後睡個懶覺,快哉。
35.學會承受痛苦。有些話,適合爛在心裡,有些痛苦,適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過,你成長了,自己知道就好。
36.任何場合,保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。
2.想辦法努力賺錢,而不是如何省錢。
3.憤怒的時候,數到30,再說話。
4.喜歡的東西自己努力買,不要指望別人送。
5.少喝果汁多吃水果,少吃零食多喝水,少坐多站,少想多看,少說多做,少懷舊多憧憬。
6.永遠不會再有第二個男人像爸爸這樣愛你,所以最愛的男人當然是爸爸。
7.不要24小時都想念同一個人。可以分一點給家人和朋友。
8.不要認為找個有錢男人就什麼都有了。世界上年輕的女孩子,多的就像貨櫃上的可樂,喝不喝都無所謂。
9.吃下去的就堅決不再吐出來,所以吃之前要想清楚。
10.寂寞的時候,不要聽慢歌,懷舊或者膩死在網上,站起來做運動或者去找朋友八卦。
11.看透的時候,假裝沒看透。
12.工作的你,和遊手好閒的你,絕對不是同一個人。
13.做好防曬,但記得適當地曬曬太陽。心情也會進行光合作用。真的。
14.真正看中的東西就買,不要借錢,想清楚之後再決定,決定之後就不要後悔 。
15.銀行卡的密碼不要用男友的生日。
16.永遠不向從前的戀人訴苦。
17.出門之前,根據步行的時間和強度考慮要穿的鞋子。
18.要讀好書,陶冶情操,提高品位。
19.可以淘便宜的衣服,但記得自己的品位比這個價位高。
20.桌上的護膚品永遠比化妝品多,貴,好,對於女人來說外養不如內調。
21.養成寫日記的習慣,哪怕隻言片語。
22.可以不認同,但學會尊重。
23.注重內心,但不忽略外表。
24.做不了決定的時候,讓時間幫你決定。如果還是無法決定,做了再說。寧願犯錯,不留遺憾!
25.打電話的時候記得微笑,對方聽的見。
26.每月記帳,每月儲蓄。
27.瞭解潮流,但不必跟風。
28.看起來多大年齡,就有多大年齡。
29.相信愛情和mr.right的存在,在此之前也不拒絕和mr.wrong們分享人生。
30.如果發短資訊給你喜歡的人,他不回。不要再發
31.不要為了任何人任何事折磨自己。比如不吃飯、哭泣、自閉、抑鬱,這些都是傻瓜才做的事。當然,偶爾傻一下有必要,人生不必時時聰明
32.穿有質感的衣服,找有品質的男朋友。他不一定很有錢,但是一定要能讓你有安全感和開心。
33.如果決定離開一個人,行動要快一點,快刀斬亂麻;如果決定愛上一個人,時間拉長一點,看清楚是否適合你。
34.閒情時候自己煮花茶煮咖啡喝,或者做茶點吃,放一段柔情音樂,翻閱幾頁好書,然後睡個懶覺,快哉。
35.學會承受痛苦。有些話,適合爛在心裡,有些痛苦,適合無聲無息的忘記。當經歷過,你成長了,自己知道就好。
36.任何場合,保持應有的涵養。學會說謝謝、辛苦您、對不起。做錯了事情要懂得道歉和改過。
Sunday, October 10, 2010
RUN and RUN and RUN
It was a fine windy Thursday evening-- superb day to jog and train stamina for the upcoming Nike Run on Sunday. I sms Ickes and YH to seek for companion or to be more precise, motivation. Ickes was too busy with her cheer practice and thus only YH was successfully being dragged by me ;)
2....3....5....8 (from the very first time I jogged in BJ park with Ickes till now) Finally! After 2.5 years of giving myself excuse that I couldn't run because I am too fat or I will SOB if I run too long or whatever excuse that makes my life easier, I finally made it to 8 rounds continuosly in less than half an hour.
I know that this might be a piece of cake to the others, and may be even a 50-year-old Lao Ah Pak can do way better than me, but hmmm...Who cares? I am not competing with anybody else except myself. I told YH that I must make it to 12 rounds before I graduate from IMU, and yeah! I can do it =)
Today is Sunday.10.10.10, which is also YH's bday! My ah chai grown up already..haha..can see he is now no longer that emo as frequent as previously. Good good! =)NIKE RUN at 7am in the vicinity of KLCC, a very busy and jammed area especially during the peak hour. With all the 10000 people(I doubt so) and other crazily fit IMU infinity milers,I started my 10km journey at 7.17am. My target was to run for 30 min non-stop and yes, I made it! 36min for 5km--slow but at least I didn't give up until I reach my initial target. After that I walked and jogged for another 3km on my own leisure, took my own sweet time to go to toilet, fill in 100 plus into my water bottle, take pictures, bla bla~~ My phone rang and it was Ickes calling while eating banana and busy taking finishing Nike toys for the second and third time. Lol! Still 2km away..expected to be the slowest one..XD
*1hr 25 min* Pheww..Finally..Surprisingly my inspiration was not from any of the runners or friends there although I did aim people in front of me from time to time, but it's from a person whom I shouldn't be thinking of during the run. I want to continue running! I want to see what is the max I can reach, I want to do everything when I'm still young! Next run will be 7km continuosly or 13km ;)
2....3....5....8 (from the very first time I jogged in BJ park with Ickes till now) Finally! After 2.5 years of giving myself excuse that I couldn't run because I am too fat or I will SOB if I run too long or whatever excuse that makes my life easier, I finally made it to 8 rounds continuosly in less than half an hour.
I know that this might be a piece of cake to the others, and may be even a 50-year-old Lao Ah Pak can do way better than me, but hmmm...Who cares? I am not competing with anybody else except myself. I told YH that I must make it to 12 rounds before I graduate from IMU, and yeah! I can do it =)
Today is Sunday.10.10.10, which is also YH's bday! My ah chai grown up already..haha..can see he is now no longer that emo as frequent as previously. Good good! =)NIKE RUN at 7am in the vicinity of KLCC, a very busy and jammed area especially during the peak hour. With all the 10000 people(I doubt so) and other crazily fit IMU infinity milers,I started my 10km journey at 7.17am. My target was to run for 30 min non-stop and yes, I made it! 36min for 5km--slow but at least I didn't give up until I reach my initial target. After that I walked and jogged for another 3km on my own leisure, took my own sweet time to go to toilet, fill in 100 plus into my water bottle, take pictures, bla bla~~ My phone rang and it was Ickes calling while eating banana and busy taking finishing Nike toys for the second and third time. Lol! Still 2km away..expected to be the slowest one..XD
*1hr 25 min* Pheww..Finally..Surprisingly my inspiration was not from any of the runners or friends there although I did aim people in front of me from time to time, but it's from a person whom I shouldn't be thinking of during the run. I want to continue running! I want to see what is the max I can reach, I want to do everything when I'm still young! Next run will be 7km continuosly or 13km ;)
Thursday, September 30, 2010
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
My first thrilling yet joyful experience yesterday turned out to be a disastrous phenomenon(a bit exaggerated as I am trying to make it sounds terrible,XD) for me when I realize that my bracelet which I took out during extraction actually has a pair of wing~
It flew away from me, declared freedom and left its owner alone with a despair bleeding heart at home =.=
It didn't even get to say goodbye to me..WHY??? Why?? Why are you a newborn? Why are you made of white gold? Why are you not one of my cheap plastic jewelleries?? Haihz... NO..No complaining~ I don't even have the right to whine, because this is not my first time losing important belonging of mine.
JAMIE CHEW!! When will you get rid of your sotong-ish habit? I wonder will you misplace your denture next time in the restaurant and smile in front of the public without a single tooth!! Yes, I am cursing you! Sooo please be more alert next time! It's not the matter of how pricey the thing is, it is about how neglectful you are my dear~
Can any birthday girl or bday boy make a wish for me? Wish this is just a prank masked by my clumsiness and forgetfulness.. Wish that all these are false hallucination resulting from exhaustion.. Wish someone would laugh at me and say:" Hey stupid, isn't this what you have been looking for?"
YEAH... Tomorrow I will get back my beloved bracelet (^.^) Sweet dream tonight~ May be it will come back and find me during 头七 and report to me the location of its dead body..keke..
It flew away from me, declared freedom and left its owner alone with a despair bleeding heart at home =.=
It didn't even get to say goodbye to me..WHY??? Why?? Why are you a newborn? Why are you made of white gold? Why are you not one of my cheap plastic jewelleries?? Haihz... NO..No complaining~ I don't even have the right to whine, because this is not my first time losing important belonging of mine.
JAMIE CHEW!! When will you get rid of your sotong-ish habit? I wonder will you misplace your denture next time in the restaurant and smile in front of the public without a single tooth!! Yes, I am cursing you! Sooo please be more alert next time! It's not the matter of how pricey the thing is, it is about how neglectful you are my dear~
Can any birthday girl or bday boy make a wish for me? Wish this is just a prank masked by my clumsiness and forgetfulness.. Wish that all these are false hallucination resulting from exhaustion.. Wish someone would laugh at me and say:" Hey stupid, isn't this what you have been looking for?"
YEAH... Tomorrow I will get back my beloved bracelet (^.^) Sweet dream tonight~ May be it will come back and find me during 头七 and report to me the location of its dead body..keke..
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
MY FIRST EXTRACTION
29.9.2010
2.50pm
OHC
Vincent Khaw
Supervisor: Prof Ong Siew Tin
After birthday celebration with 8 of them in Star Village and had delightful chocolatey cake from "just heavenly", we rushed back to OHC for oral surgery demo session. A middle-aged male patient(previoulsy treated by Yun Teng) was here for extraction referred by Dr.Lim. Today's my turn to volunteer in handling this procedure.
Without much preparation and sufficient of core knowledge, I started it off by obtaining history of the patient, inject lidocaine(inferior alveolar nerve block), anaesthesize long buccal nerve, lingual nerve, and started to loosen the tooth (36) using coopland 1. Prof Ong was extremely patient in guiding me every single step. Forcep 73 was chosen and force was applied towards the buccal side.. Krarrrkkk... Everyone was shocked! Fracture was the first thing that came into their thought but fortunately that was the sound of tooth detached from the socket..In other word, Job is done! YESH!! Successful;) Lingual..buccal..lingual..buccal..OUT~~ woohoo..
Applied force to the socket to prevent deformation of the socket.. Patient was bleeding profusely and I was somewhat disgusted by that..haha..Nooo..should see more blood..After post-op instructions, patient thanked me and walked out with smile~ Here's my first considered acceptable experience of extraction. A successful start to becoming a qualified dentist =) More to pick up..
2.50pm
OHC
Vincent Khaw
Supervisor: Prof Ong Siew Tin
After birthday celebration with 8 of them in Star Village and had delightful chocolatey cake from "just heavenly", we rushed back to OHC for oral surgery demo session. A middle-aged male patient(previoulsy treated by Yun Teng) was here for extraction referred by Dr.Lim. Today's my turn to volunteer in handling this procedure.
Without much preparation and sufficient of core knowledge, I started it off by obtaining history of the patient, inject lidocaine(inferior alveolar nerve block), anaesthesize long buccal nerve, lingual nerve, and started to loosen the tooth (36) using coopland 1. Prof Ong was extremely patient in guiding me every single step. Forcep 73 was chosen and force was applied towards the buccal side.. Krarrrkkk... Everyone was shocked! Fracture was the first thing that came into their thought but fortunately that was the sound of tooth detached from the socket..In other word, Job is done! YESH!! Successful;) Lingual..buccal..lingual..buccal..OUT~~ woohoo..
Applied force to the socket to prevent deformation of the socket.. Patient was bleeding profusely and I was somewhat disgusted by that..haha..Nooo..should see more blood..After post-op instructions, patient thanked me and walked out with smile~ Here's my first considered acceptable experience of extraction. A successful start to becoming a qualified dentist =) More to pick up..
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