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Stresssssed...

Saddddddd...

Siennnnnnn...

3s = Pre-exam syndrome, that can only be cured with 3f

fooooooddd...

facebooookk...

friendsssssss...

And will eventually lead to another 3f:

Faaaatttttt...

Faaiiiilllllll...

Faainnttttt...

Nothing much

Woohoo..it's already June. Sem 7 is ending really soon. Do I have time to catch up what I have missed, recapture things that I have learnt, and also keep pace on what I m suppose to do now?

I am glad that I have finally "awakened", I dono how but I did it! *wink* Yea, I was once a 'sleeping beauty' who had been living and struggling in my own dream world. Total waste of time! Booo..

Oh yeah, not the main point..The thing I wanna shout out loud is: **I PASSED MY FIRST COMPETENCY TEST TODAY!!** I was the first one who attempted to do in the class. Papa sarcastically said that I passed with sympathy. He has got his point I think. Wrong tooth selection, punched only one hole for interproximal(class 3) caries, improper clamp placement. One more cunning idea I came up with just now is, I asked mami (Yes, she is the patient!wakaka) to go to toilet..mainly because I want to replace her torn rubber dam with a new one without making it so obvious. Hhahahaha! I am sooooo smart, ain't I??

Can I confess something here? Don't think it's wise to tell the whole story. but.. all 5 of us will sure pass the RD formative, and higher chance to pass DP2 now=) ngiek ngiek..I bet you won't want to know how.

Ganbatte! Counting down to holiday! 41 days left..I need a break! =P

Funny day!

I couldn't stop laughing since just now.

YS told me his current "target" is me this afternoon when we what's app. He has been constantly praising me for being gorgeous, pretty, blabla..*wuak..must be blind!* I kept changing topic and tried to made him say his was just kidding but he insisted that he told me the truth.

At the same time, JS fb msg me and say will call me tonight to ask me something. He didn't call but I received a fb msg from him around 11pm:

[Actually there's just something i need to tell u. We've known each other for quite a while. Its might sounds weird to u i think...ive been missing u all the time. Wanna listen to ur voice everytime i think of u. U're just that special. I dont know how to describe the feeling. Maybe thats what happen when u like someone i assume. Ive been keeping this in my heart for some time. I feel that i just need to tell u that i really like u...from the bottom of my heart. p/s: i just wanna express my feeling to u. No matter what, we're still great frens k.:-)]

I can't help laughing after these two incidences today. OMG.. I just dono what to say other than diverting their focus to something else. Hmm..should I be happy cox it means that I still have some market value? LOL..Haihz..but why..why isn't it you..I just couldnt walk out from your shadow~ 3 mths are long enough my dear Jamie.. You didn't even need more than a week to recover 2 yrs back!

speechless

我也不想我的blog充满着伤心的post, 可是我想发现没有人能听我诉说， 也找不到心灵的寄托，只好又回到这里自己写给自己看， 安静地往心里发泄~

也许我不擅于表达吧，我所说出的关心话，所做的东西， 所限制他们一些不益健康的习惯，都会被认为是一种指责，一种不重视，一种霸道无理的行为。

昨天叫妈妈不要常对电脑，会对已经开始麻痹了的手不好，她却可以从昨天到今天不停地借题发挥， 反倒说为什么又不会帮忙做家务， 不会心疼她做得很辛苦？搬来那么多次， 有剪过草吗？有煮过一餐给我吃吗？

还记得以前我剪草时，你说有剪等于没剪， 算了， 我没那种天份~

每次进厨房， 你又说我去捣乱，弄脏，可是至少有弄过不少早餐。最后一次是意大利面，或许你 不在乎， 所以不记得吧~

或许我真的不是个好女儿，可是我真的有尝试讨你开心，母亲节时亲手折钱玫瑰；你打来时无论我有多忙，我都告诉我自己要耐心地听完；你骂我时我尽量不顶撞，却被你说我每次只会摆回臭脸给你看~

你真的看不出我的努力吗？在你眼中，可能只有缺点。。。

如果你真的不想看到我，觉得我很碍眼， 我可以学大姐，拜六礼拜少在家，就不用被说不帮你做家务；我也可以学桂如，身体弱生病就会让你心疼些， 爱护些~

回到家原来会更累。。。早知就不回了~

Msgs from dear friends

All the very warm messages from my buddies when I wasn't feeling well for the past two days:

Yoong Siang(what's app): Must take care of your body ah, health comes first then only focus on your study. Not beside you, kenot helo u jor too bad..drink some water n sleep lor superwoman..summore dizzy then i operate your head n c d..

Vince(skype chat): Why headache? you take care! shouldnt fall sick since you r something like a dr..eat more,gain energy

Ickes(fb wall): Jamie, u sick ah?? Take care yo...drink lot lot water.
that time u say when's badminton ah??

Estherin--Shu Fang(fb wall): take care ^^

Edmund(what's app): still dizzy ah? is it not enough blood?sayang u also tak sempat lah, where dare to bully u..go have a hot drink then sleep early, dont play computer n iphone too much..

Jon(fb msg): Jamie... Lao Ban give u 良药的配方 >> 20 hours de rest out of one day, 10 L of water per day, plenty of Strepsils (* all packets that u can find in 7-11), and plenty of vegetables and oranges (* pasar pagi got a lot)... Hope u get well soon... remember always take care wor... ^^

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二月二十号， 到今天的三月十一号， 原来我颓废了一个月十一天！

浪费了我的青春， 时间， 力气。。

看回日记：

从开心 期待 甜蜜

到冷淡 疑惑 讲明

到 无奈 看开 放下

到 回想 低落 伤心

好像来回了好几轮~

啊！太傻了！！清醒咯jamie chew kwai yee!!

电话里的照片，谈天的内容，彻底地删除了=） 谢谢你曾经给我美好的回忆。我们都没错，都清楚了解为什么只能走到这里， 是我自己放不下而已。。下次见到你，我一定会让自己假装更坚定~

美好与不好的回忆， 该藏在仓库里，不去触动与影响心情^^

收拾好破碎的玻璃心，就该勇敢地重新出发去！

今天做了很白痴的事情。竟然去找jun ai 的patient's fb..然后跟shu qeng 一起stalk 他~ 然后两个人都很兴奋地在讨论他，说比牛肉好很多，要抢来抢去~ haha.. 好久没有笑到那样白痴了！

和她skype时，又逼她讲出一些她个人的惊人秘密。。('o') 讲一半又不讲一半， 逼到我都笑死了！

真的很谢谢她在我低落时一直陪着我， 鼓励我，安慰我，提醒我~

没有很多人懂我有几难受， 懂我难受的人又不了解为什么~

可能他们还心想我是笨蛋 @.@

上天对我太好了，有肯陪我谈天的室友, 肯跟我玩闹打羽球的朋友，还有疼我的家人~ 幸福一百分！

加油哦！

原来我没想象中那么的坚强…没有表面上看起来那么的乐观…

最近我都在问别人，为什么没有谈恋爱却会有失恋的感觉呢？

我曾经大方地笑着对他说：跟你打睹你一定比我先拍拖的，哈哈！ 可是如果真的实践了，我还会那么的潇洒与不在乎吗？

原来踩进去了就会越陷越深，无法自拔了～谁能教我怎样放下呢？